Celebrating Mother’s Day
I will get there. I am working OVERTIME to become a mother. Mother’s Day is to celebrate anyone caring for others, giving to others.
Infertility: Forever Waiting
When will the time be right? When will Hashem (G-d) hear me crying out to him in pain, calling to Him from the depths of my heart and soul Can He hear me?
Counting
“Six weeks Six weeks since my lifeless fetus was removed from uterus. 42 days 42 days since my dreams and hopes were ripped from heart. 1,008 hours.”
Secondary Infertility Affects Our Children
It’s hard to be an only child when every family around you is much larger. It’s hard being disappointed year after year, asking and praying for a baby sister and brother, but never getting one.
Not What You Think
“After denying that anything was wrong and then realizing that so much was wrong, I spent the next few months going to doctors and and getting tests.”
Miscarriage During A Pandemic
“This pregnancy was a surprise, this baby was my light at the end of the tunnel. My company during the long, hard days. My motivation to stick something healthy inside my body and keep going.”
Secondary Infertility Journey
We just can’t seem to get to the bottom of this and my daughter is getting bigger and bigger with each month that passes. I am very grateful for her, but I very badly want to have more children.
Nobody Has A Perfect Life
Everyone is going through something. Not the same as you, but something. No one is living a perfect life. So let’s be kind to one another, okay?
Stillbirth Dreams
I had such dreams for you, my love. How you would be and act. How much you would look like us. What you would want to be when you grew up.
You’re Allowed To Complain
A follower who has been suffering for years with infertility, and recently got pregnant wrote this to me, after reading how some people are triggered when hearing people complain.
No Control Over My Body
I hate that I have no control over my body. I hate waking up early two weeks a month so that I can have the pleasure of being poked and prodded. I hate being told when we can and cannot be together.
You Can Survive
But, I’m here to tell you that you CAN survive. I don’t know how I did it, but I did. The pain and anxiety was crippling so many times. But I’m here.
Infertility and Loss Are Not Shameful
I suffered deeply through 6 years of infertility and three miscarriages, and I’m tired of the whispered phone calls I get. Infertility and loss are not shameful.
My Heart Is Heavy & It Hurts
“My heart is heavy and it hurts I feel a physical painful sensation inside Tears are beginning to form in my eyes, but I hold them back. I feel sad, quiet and a feeling of despair washes over me.”
The Joy of Just One More Baby
Will I ever have the joys of a large family? Will I ever have the joy of just one more baby? Will I ever get the chance to say ‘children’ and not just ‘child?’⠀⠀⠀
Infertility & Feeling Inadequate
Another younger sister is BH (Gd willing) getting married next month and I sometimes worry if they too will have kids before us. I try not to worry about the future, I just can’t bring myself to be together with them.
I Am Angry at G-d
And as a Jew, I know He loves me even when I’m angry at Him. And even though I’m angry at Him, He still continues to shower me with His love.
Stop The Blame Game
So many people are writing in that they tried so hard to do all the ‘right thing’ (religion wise) and they feel they’re not good enough because no matter how closer to God they are, he still hasn’t answered them.
Covid Thoughts
“It’ll be years before there is enough data to say if COVID is responsible for an increase in pregnancy loss. Nevertheless, it's been the chatter amongst OBGYNs for months.”
Self Care Is a Necessity
Read that book that’s been sitting on your night table. Have a conversation without getting distracted by that rectangle thing that keeps sending you notifications. Breathe. Take a walk outside.