"I thought that after everything I have been through - my mother's cancer, getting married at 36, losing my job last year, my husband finding out that he had no sperm, doing all the tests and procedures, waiting and waiting and waiting, that this year would finally be our time. We had so much hope.

And now, I have nothing. We keep getting bad news after bad news, and I don't know how much more I can take.

I really thought I was going to be pregnant by this year, and now I just don't know what to feel.

I'm angry, sad, and numb most of the time. I hardly go out. And I don't even know if I can go to shul (synagogue) on RH.

I'm writing to you because I see how many people are out there suffering in this community, but I just feel so alone all the time because everyone I know has so many kids already. I know that I should feel lucky because I have my husband (a few of my friends are still single), but instead of feeling grateful, I'm just feeling depressed.

Is there anyone who can give me any strength or hope that this will get better?"

---Anonymous