Two Week Wait Thoughts

“Gosh I hate 2ww (two week wait). Everything just turns endlessly.

How can 2 weeks be sooo long.

I hate 2ww stuck at home in winter. It’s the worst. Nowhere to go. No one to go somewhere with. Aaaaagh.

It's the strangest cycle now. Still, somehow I have no symptoms, and everything is awfully quiet. I'm trying to listen and feel if it worked or not, but all is...quiet. Today I had cramping though which is also strange and a bit scary. Tomorrow is day 7. I have no interest even to test anything...

Day 8. Ugh. Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes....No. Have symptoms but blaming them on the meds (progesterone, etc). Easier than false hopes. Honestly, I'm starting to freak today.

Definitely cabin fever.

Aaaagh.

I wish I had a REAL symptom that is irrefutable and can't be related to the meds, and would make me "know" - like the usual nausea or other stuff I had with my daughter. Although it's too early anyway at this point.

Day 9: More period-like symptoms today. Time to freak 😮 Ahhhhhhhh.

Day 10: Phew. Symptoms got better. Still nothing. Wish I had a really big, fat case of morning sickness. It would be a confirmation for me without having to test. Clinic is like: just relax a lot and drink a lot. Eat protein. Wait for beta. 😂 Great advice for another dreadful weekend.

Day 12. You know how it goes. Freaking out over all the symptoms you have, are "supposed to" have... and don't have/the absence thereof. Right now I'm like...I feel "way too good" to be expecting. No nausea etc.

Day 14 - aka test day tomorrow.And I still don't have real symptoms -just feeling weird sometimes.... I don’t want to test. At least I don't think so. Not sure how the clinic will react.

I’m just so tired of the waiting.”