Feelings Post-Miscarriage

“I’ve lost five pregnancies, the most recent a month ago at 10 weeks. It was followed up with a disastrous miscarriage process-D&C, two rounds of cytotec, and methotrexate in an attempt to remove what looked like placenta accreta. It’s still in there, so every week I go sit at a MFM (with so many pregnant women) to look at what it’s doing.

We went from having a baby in July to not knowing if we’ll have another without using a carrier. And to use a carrier, I need surgery on both ovaries to remove cysts, so they can do IVF.

I am faking it pretty well, but honestly- I am completely overwhelmed and devastated.

I have a child who I love to the moon and back, but my heart has a hole for another.

Infertility disappoints the nicest, most loving part of me and I don’t know how to bounce back. I know I’ll find a way, one day, but I’m pretty broken right now.”

—From an anonymous follower

Many of you think your feelings post-miscarriage are not valid because you already have a child...or because of any other reason that you’ve conjured up in your head.

That’s just not true.

All of those emotions are okay, normal and welcome here.