Life With Grief

Anonymous Snapshot of Life with Grief

Huge thanks to these members for giving us a glimpse into their world. (Some details have been changed to protect anonymity)


"I wrote a poem when I was a few weeks after my 24-week loss. I live on a block with at least 30 young families. Every single one of them besides me has either a baby or a toddler, and many have both. My poem was in reaction to all the โ€˜Youโ€™re so luckyโ€™ and โ€˜You donโ€™t understandโ€™ I got from neighbors.


โ€œWhen I read these posts, it makes me think of moving to a different community. Sadly, my community is sooooo child-focused; ppl literally have double-digit-sized families, and yet no focus on those of us struggling. If anything, itโ€™s where are your other kids? Or are your boys at the menโ€™s side? No, my dh is dancing w out any little boys in his arms. And for those who do know my situation, the silence is DEAFENING. Yes, Iโ€™m screaming ๐Ÿคฏ. My due date is in 2 weeks, and Iโ€™m a wreckโ€ฆAnd the more subtle, is this your youngest? And, of course, the usual, how many kids do you have? I got all these questions in shul this Simchas Torah. All in the same night.โ€


โ€œToday is the 4-year anniversary of my d&c for my pregnancy. On top of all the feelings, it hurts when I remember a friend telling me donโ€™t worry; fertility spikes after a loss (not sure where she gets this BS from). By the first anniversary, youโ€™ll have a baby in your arms. All I had since then was another two losses, with the due date coming up soon. Ugh, all this fake positivity. Just pours salt in my wounds.โ€


โ€œMy sister had a baby yesterday. On my loss anniversary. We were due around the same time. Newborns are so triggering that I canโ€™t look at them, and here I open my phone on a day Iโ€™m at my lowest and see a fresh newborn ๐Ÿ˜ข. People are just so insensitive. Itโ€™s not like we have this great relationship that I need to see a pic of the baby right away. A text wouldโ€™ve been enough. And sheโ€™s my younger sibling. Oy, whereโ€™s that island when I need it? ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธโ€

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