I’m Tired
“I’m tired...
Tired of waiting.
Waiting for answers.
Waiting for my period.
Waiting for test results.
Waiting to see that specialist.
Waiting at the doctors office.
Tired of hope.
Hoping this will be my month.
Hoping this time I’ll have the answers.
Hoping this time I’ll be pregnant.
Hoping my missed period is a good thing.
Hoping this month will be different.
Tired of fear.
Fear of what will be.
Fear of the unknown.
Fear of hope.
Fear of holding on.
Fear of letting go.
Tired of trying.
Trying to smile.
Trying to be happy.
Trying to show up.
Trying to get pregnant.
Trying to be.
I’m tired of being poked and prodded.
I’m tired of sharing my medical history yet again.
I’m tired of throwing money down the drain.
I’m tired of not being able to breathe.
I’m so tired.
I’m tired of the pain.
I’m tired of the ache in my heart.
I’m tired of the love in my soul.
I’m tired.
I’m so tired.”