Another submission, this time by @shoshanastavsky

“I want a baby

I want to feel the joy of a positive pregnancy test
I want to feel the first twinge of morning sickness
I want to feel that overwhelming exhaustion

I want a baby

I want my body to know how to make a baby
I want to create this baby all on our own
I want to have a baby without medical intervention

But I want a baby

And when I start feeling the monthly cramping and the blood flow, I know it’s not going to be this month
My body did it twice so maybe next month it will do it again
Or maybe next month will bring cramping and blood flow along with heartbreak and disappointment yet again

I want a baby

I’m not ready to start IVF again
And yet I know
If I want a baby IVF is where I need to go
But maybe this month will be different
Maybe this month my body will perform another miracle
Maybe this month will be our month

I want a baby”