High Holiday Haze

We got this message from a follower who is reflecting about the approaching holidays ❤️

“How does one fill that void?

That intense longing of holding my baby.

The baby I’ve been waiting for, for so long.

No vacations, jewelry, new clothing, or any physical tangible item can fill that void. No matter how great or luxurious the item or how memorable and enjoyable the vacations.

That void cannot be filled.

The immense longing, pain, anger, intense emotions for my dream.

As the Yom Tov (holiday) season begins to set in and everyone begins the countdown to Rosh Hashana, I want to crawl under my covers and hibernate for a few months.

I was so sure last Sukkos that come this Yom Tov season I’ll be bringing my baby to shul (synagogue) or the very least be noticeably pregnant.

But here we are, a year later, still struggling with infertility.

Tishrei (first month of the Jewish calendar) is so hard for me.

I hate how it’s a month full of focus on family. My husband is in shul for hours leaving me alone, empty handed and our infertility highlighted enormously. I’m not part of any shul as I use shabbos as an actual day of rest and me time.”