While this space is geared to those who are struggling to have a child, we often get messages from those who are not even able to try yet, for many different reasons. This piece was sent in by an anonymous woman who is still single.
“Pesach.
Another year.
While this space is geared to those who are struggling to have a child, we often get messages from those who are not even able to try yet, for many different reasons.
This piece was sent in by an anonymous woman who is still single.
“Pesach.
Another year.
Alone.
Same routine. Same menu. Same cooking schedule. Same cleaning routine.
So much happened since last Pesach (Passover). My siblings are continuing to happily build their families. Their kids are getting older and enjoying to be part of the beautiful pesach traditions. Creating new memories with their smart children. Enjoying intimate family time and laughing around the Yom tov table creating legacies that will last for years.
The people around me are getting married. Creating new normals. Building foundations that will bring much simcha (happiness).
And then there’s my pain. Stuck. So stuck. In the same routine. In the same pesach for the last 34 years. Some with more company and some with more laughter. But the same.
I try so hard. Try to please everyone. Try to be the best daughter. The best big sister. No one appreciates. No one cares about me. They just like my help and the fake smile I plaster on my face while I’m home.
But Hashem (G-d), when will be my turn?? When will be my turn to have my redemption from this empty cycle of life I’m stuck in?? Will I ever feel Geula (salavation)? Why do I deserve this?? What am I doing wrong?
Hashem, I’m so unhappy and in such deep pain and You are the only one who knows this or understands this. Please do something about it! Only you can!! I can’t take this pain any longer.
I’m smiling to the world but you know how I’m really feeling.”
