Mother’s Day Necklace

“MOTHERS DAY 2021, the most triggering day in the calendar in my opinion. To the rest of the world, I am not recognized as a mother because they don't see my children. Today I am going to go out of my comfort zone and I want to tell the world that I am a mother. In this picture I am sharing with you my most precious piece of jewelry I own. This necklace was purchased on December 24th, 2020 after I experienced two personal losses. This necklace was a gift I gave myself to grieve my loss. I wanted something physical to represent a loss that's not tangible because that's what infertility is. It's a loss of a dream. It's a loss of what could have been. Four days after I purchased the necklace, I lost it while I was taking a walk. When I realized I lost the necklace my whole world stopped. I was devastated, upset, and so sad. I told Hashem, "You took away my baby and now you took away my necklace that represents my babies." I started retracing my steps.

I wanted to find this necklace so badly because it meant so much to me. I almost got home without finding the necklace. A part of me wanted to give up, hide, get depressed, and cry my heart out. BUT I told myself that I will not give up till I take home my necklace. BH thank you Hashem I found it on the floor untouched. When I found it, I was so overwhelmed I burst into tears. I told my husband if Hashem could help me find my necklace then one day we will get our miracle. When I wear this necklace, it gives me strength. Strength to keep going, strength to get through the hardest days, and strength to never give up on my dreams. To all my sisters out there, I see you, I feel you, and I believe in you. Today, I am celebrating me! I am acknowledging myself as a mother even without holding a baby. I am acknowledging all the work it took for me to get where I am today.”