Navigating This: Life Is a Test

“IUI

IVF

HCG

DNC

I pray I cry I try

and some days I just wanna die

This is not a lie

Have I done something wrong

What’s taking so long

I’m numb

And then some

I’m sad

I’m mad

I’m empty

Depleted

Defeated

Those hopes and dreams

They’re gone it seems

Feels like theft

All that’s left

Is pills

And bills

And pain

No gain

Barren womb

Empty room

No noice

No toys

Just two

Sadly still true

On the surface it’s blurry

Full of anxiety and worry

But I smile and pretned

That all will be fine in the end

Because I hope that’s true

Deep down I believe in you

My story so long

I’ve learned to be strong

Don’t just judge and stare

Have compassion and care

Be nice

Think twice

I’m doing my best

Navigating this life test”