Jealous of Pregnancy

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I just can’t help but wonder though why I seem to sometimes feel I don’t belong. I never had a miscarriage or loss; I never even got a positive pregnancy test! This is after trying for over two years and doing fertility treatments for one year.
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Is it crazy that sometimes I wish I was pregnant for even a day?
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And I feel horrible that I’m jealous of a friend that got that joy for even a little bit. I know that must be hurtful to people that went through the pain of losing - I don’t know that pain and it must be awful. That’s why I would never say this to people.
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But I just I feel so alone.”