Don’t Call Me Strong

Hi 🙋🏻‍♀️ so I first felt bad coming in to this account because I am so young but I realized what I have went through still hurts me and affects me too
Even if I know I can get pregnant
Even if I know I am young
Even if I have only been married a year and a half
It doesn’t discount my losses, my trauma, the fear
I deal with it everyday, all the time, and it feels so much better to know I’m not alone ...
I went through both an ectopic and just a few weeks ago a miscarriage at 13 weeks, on the same day my sister had a healthy baby...
I’m still figuring out my coping mechanisms, but writing and reading what other people have to say have been amazing.

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I’d rather never be called strong or resilient again
By never having to prove I haven’t yet been broken
Does it prove weakness when your strength is not tested
Does it make everyone around you scrawny in comparison
Compared to the daunting task you were forced to face
Not once
Twice
Would I call you strong for taking a hit from someone
And crying and hurting for so long...
Is this different
Yes
But to me
To my heart
That is hurting
It feels the same
Don’t tell me the slap made me strong
Don’t tell me I was so strong I was blessed to receive the slap
Don’t tell me the slap made me stronger
Let me for once
Just not be involved.