Reflections from a woman who has been through Termination For Medical Reasons

“It's been a year since I saw the flicker of the heartbeat on the screen. A year since I heard the heartbeat and allowed myself to dream.

The past year I've experienced so many emotions from lows to highs and back again.

Just when I think the sandstorm has blown away, a wind comes, kicks up the sand, and creates a tornado leaving me to put the pieces back together.

Over the last year, I shed a tear or two but life moved at such a fast pace, between teaching, kids, covid and just life. But in the last 2 weeks I cried enough to fill a river. I finally allowed myself the time and space to grieve, to heal and move on. Someone close to me experienced a miscarriage and I stood by her, cried tears for her that she had to go through something similar. Picked her up when she was down and gave her the tools I learned to be able to put one foot in front of the other.

Although I have nothing external to show (well except for a couple of extra pounds) for the last year, my heart has not escaped unscathed. It has been bruised and battered, kicked and thrown, knocked every which way.

My message to all of you is even though from the outside there are no blemishes on a person, you don't know what's going on the inside.
❤️Watch what you say and how you say it.
❤️Be compassionate.
❤️Think twice.

💔But most of all just don't forget that a loss is a loss and it doesn't go away.”